I’m
an old man now, and a lonesome man in Kansas
but
not afraid
to
speak my lonesomeness in a car,
because
not only my lonesomeness
it’s
Ours, all over America,
O
tender fellows—
&
spoken lonesomeness is Prophecy
in
the moon 100 years ago or in
the
middle of Kansas now.
It’s
not the vast plains mute our mouths
that
fill at midnite with ecstatic language
when
our trembling bodies hold each other
breast
to breast on a mattress—
Not
the empty sky that hides
the
feeling from our faces
nor
our skirts and trousers that conceal
the
bodylove emanating in a glow of beloved skin,
white
smooth abdomen down to the hair
between
our legs,
It’s
not a God that bore us that forbid
our
Being, like a sunny rose
all
red with naked joy
between
our eyes & bellies, yes
All
we do is for this frightened thing
we
call Love, want and lack—
fear
that we aren’t the one whose body could be
beloved
of all the brides of Kansas City,
kissed
all over by every boy of Wichita—
O
but how many in their solitude weep aloud like me—
On
the bridge over Republican River
almost
in tears to know
how
to speak the right language—
on
the frosty broad road
uphill
between highway embankments
I
search for the language
that
is also yours—
almost
all our language has been taxed by war.
Radio
antennae high tension
wires
ranging from Junction City across the plains—
highway
cloverleaf sunk in a vast meadow
lanes
curving past Abilene
to
Denver filled with old
heroes
of love—
to
Wichita where McClure’s mind
burst
into animal beauty
drunk,
getting laid in a car
in
a neon misted street
15
years ago—
to
Independence where the old man’s still alive
who
loosed the bomb that’s slaved all human consciousness
and
made the body universe a place of fear—
Now,
speeding along the empty plain,
no
giant demon machine
visible
on the horizon
but
tiny human trees and wooden houses at the sky’s edge
I
claim my birthright!
reborn
forever as long as Man
in
Kansas or other universe—Joy
reborn
after the vast sadness of the War Gods!
A
lone man talking to myself, no house in the brown vastness to hear
imagining
that throng of Selves
that
make this nation one body of Prophecy
languaged
by Declaration as Pursuit of
Happiness!
I
call all Powers of imagination
to
my side in this auto to make Prophecy,
all
Lords
of
human kingdoms to come
Shambu
Bharti Baba naked covered with ash
Khaki
Baba fat-bellied mad with the dogs
Dehorahava
Baba who moans Oh how wounded, How wounded
Sitaram
Onkar Das Thakur who commands
give
up your desire
Satyananda
who raises two thumbs in tranquility
Kali
Pada Guha Roy whose yoga drops before the void
Shivananda
who touches the breast and says OM
Srimata
Krishnaji of Brindaban who says take for your guru
William
Blake the invisible father of English visions
Sri
Ramakrishna master of ecstasy eyes
half
closed who only cries for his mother
Chitanya
arms upraised singing & dancing his own praise
merciful
Chango judging our bodies
Durga-Ma
covered with blood
destroyer
of battlefield illusions
million
faced Tathagata gone past suffering
Preserver
Harekrishna returning in the age of pain
Sacred
Heart my Christ acceptable
Allah
the compassionate one
Jaweh
Righteous One
all
Knowledge-Princes of Earth-man, all
ancient
Seraphim of heavenly Desire, Devas, yogis
&
holymen I chant to—
Come
to my lone presence
into
this Vortex named Kansas,
I
lift my voice aloud,
make
Mantra of American language now,
I
here declare the end of the War!
Ancient
days’ Illusion!—
and
pronounce words beginning my own millennium.
Let
the States tremble,
let
the nation weep,
let
Congress legislate its own delight,
let
the President execute his own desire—
this
Act done by my own voice,
nameless
Mystery—
published
to my own senses,
blissfully
received by my own form
approved
with pleasure by my sensations
manifestation
of my very thought
accomplished
in my own imagination
all
realms within my consciousness fulfilled
60
miles from Wichita
near
El Dorado,
The
Golden One,
in
chill earthly mist
houseless
brown farmland plains rolling heavenward
in
every direction
one
midwinter afternoon Sunday called the day of the Lord—
Pure
Spring Water gathered in one tower
where
Florence is
set
on a hill,
stop
for tea & gas
Cars
passing their messages along country crossroads
to
populaces cement-networked on flatness,
giant
white mist on earth
and
a Wichita Eagle-Beacon headlines
“Kennedy
Urges Cong Get Chair in Negotiations”
The
War is gone,
Language
emerging on the motel news stand,
the
right magic
Formula,
the language known
in
the back of the mind before, now in black print
daily
consciousness
Eagle
News Services Saigon—
Headline
Surrounded Vietcong Charge Into Fire Fight
the
suffering not yet ended
for
others
The
last spasms of the dragon of pain
shoot
thru the muscles
a
crackling around the eyeballs
of
a sensitive yellow boy by a muddy wall
Continued
from page one area
after
the Marines killed 256 Vietcong captured 31
ten
day operation Harvest Moon last December
Language
language
U.S.
Military Spokesmen
Language
language
Cong
death toll
has
soared to 100 in First Air Cavalry
Division’s
Sector of
Language
language
Operation
White Wing near Bong Son
Some
of the
Language
language
Communist
Language
language soldiers
charged
so desperately
they
were struck with six or seven bullets before they fell
Language
Language M-60 Machine Guns
Language
language in La Drang Valley
the
terrain is rougher infested with leeches and scorpions
The
war was over several hours ago!
Oh
at last again the radio opens
blue
Invitations!
Angelic
Dylan singing across the nation
“When
all your children start to resent you
Won’t
you come see me, Queen Jane?”
His
youthful voice making glad
the
brown endless meadows
His
tenderness penetrating aether,
soft
prayer on the airwaves,
Language
language, and sweet music too
even
unto thee,
hairy
flatness!
even
unto thee
despairing
Burns!
Future
speeding on swift wheels
straight
to the heart of Wichita!
Now
radio voices cry population hunger world
if
unhappy people
waiting
for Man to be born
O
man in America!
you
certainly smell good
the
radio says
passing
mysterious families of winking towers
grouped
round a Quonset-hut on a hillock—
feed
storage or military fear factory here?
Sensitive
City, Ooh! Hamburger & Skelley’s Gas
lights
feed man and machine,
Kansas
Electric Substation aluminum robot
signals
thru thin antennae towers
above
the empty football field
at
Sunday dusk
to
a solitary derrick that pumps oil from the unconscious
working
night & day
&
factory gas-flares edge a huge golf course
where
tired businessmen can come and play—
Cloverleaf,
Merging Traffic East Wichita turnoff
McConnell
Airforce Base
nourishing
the City—
Lights
rising in the suburbs
Supermarket
Texaco brilliance starred
over
streetlamp vertebrae on Kellogg,
green
jeweled traffic lights
confronting
the windshield,
Centertown
ganglion entered!
Crowds
of autos moving with their lightshine,
signbulbs
winking in the driver’s eyeball—
The
human nest collected, neon lit,
and
sunburst signed
for
business as usual, except on the Lord’s Day—
Redeemer
Lutheran’s three crosses lit on the lawn
reminder
of our sins
and
Titsworth offers insurance on Hydraulic
by
De Voors Guard’s Mortuary for outmoded bodies
of
the human vehicle
which
no Titsworth of insurance will customize for resale—
So
home, traveler, past the newspaper language factory
under
Union Station railroad bridge on Douglas
to
the center of the Vortex, calmly returned
to
Hotel Eaton
Carry
Nation began the war on Vietnam here
with
an angry smashing ax
attacking
Wine—
Here
fifty years ago, by her violence
began
a vortex of hatred that defoliated the Mekong Delta—
Proud
Wichita! vain Wichita
cast
the first stone!—
That
murdered my mother
who
died of the communist anticommunist psychosis
in
the madhouse one decade long ago
complaining
about wires of masscommunication in her head
and
phantom political voices in the air
besmirching
her girlish character.
Many
another has suffered death and madness
in
the Vortex from Hydraulic
to
the end of 17th –enough!
The
war is over now—
Except
for the souls
held
prisoner in Niggertown
still
pining for love of your tender white bodies O children of Wichita!
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